I haven't been here in a while, and the truth is that this past month has been very rough. I lost one of my closest friends four weeks ago. He passed away unexpectedly at the age of 32. I wasn't sure if I wanted to mention it here or not, but decided that if I didn't it felt like I was in lying, to myself mostly. I miss him unbelievably.
I saw a couple in a restaurant a week or so ago, a man and a woman, probably in their late 40's early 50's. The man reminded me a lot of my friend, a loud, over the top, dramatic guy with his hands waving when he talked. The two of them were laughing the entire meal. They were oozing fun, and really enjoying each other's company. I keep thinking of them and know that such a fun, joyful part of my life has been taken away. I can't tell you how many of those types of meals we shared, and how I thought that we would always be having those meals, even when we were older.
I can't stay in hiding forever, so I want to resume blogging. I even have some very happy news to share in another post. I am coming to terms with the fact that losing him may never get easier. I think time goes on, and the pain is still there, and always will be. I am learning to accept that.
It is funny to me how much time I spend trying to create great photographs, and yet I have spent the last few weeks staring at snapshots that mean more to me than those photographs ever will. Such is life I guess.